grrr! aku pun reti tension jugakkk!!

today..
31 january 2010
sunday

morning :
malas gila nk bgn..nk cr mknan pun mls.bahana..kena kat diri sendiri...berlapar..
nk msk megi..tup2 gas habes...
megi kembang..x makan laaa jawapannye=)

afternoon - evening :
still in lazy mood..demi dia aku pun bersiap laa...mandi2..klua..tgk movie adnan sempit..kelakarrr...
good mood
mkn mc donel plus buy pandan layer cake..sedapnyeee...
kluar smata2 nk cr memory card...if x..mne kua...dok uma tdo..

nite :
smpai uma kol 11..damnn tired...
kena marah pulak with 2 person okay!!...
wahhh panjangnye msg...
penat smlm n kmarin x hilang lagi..ditambah hari ini punye..
kenapa la mereka susah sgt nk memahami?

belle " sabar itu separuh dr iman"
as a girl...aku pikir ape laki suke ape yg mereka x suke..
but as a guy...have u tinkin like what in my mind?
the answer is no!

penattt..tension..stress...kenapa la sy je perlu memahami org sekeliling?
sedangkan org sekeliling x nk memahami sy?

kisah seorang gadis

kisah seorang gadis :

she have one guy.."that"
not caring like she want..
not romantic like she need..
not so sweet like she want..
not to tall like she want..
dont have lots of sense humor like she want..
that guy dont know how to make her smile..
but she give the best smile to that guy bcause she want to make that guy happy..
that guy dont know drawing,not love poem or cute quotes..
like she love,but she dont care...
its not the big problems..
she spends long time to do hair and make up for the guy who never appreciate..
she follow what that guy asking she to do..
she dont do what makin that guy hurt..

she accept that guy with open heart and with full arms..
at at the same times...
have another guy that....
more caring..more sweet..more funny tell her that he love her..
always make that girl smile..
what must that girl do desicion?

but at every night..
she was thinking...
what she must to do??
leave what she have for another guy that love her
or
still together with guy who always make her sad and cry with the whole night 5 day in a week?
what happen to that girl after she make little mistake?

for the guy......
please accept her like she has done for u...
appreciate is the most gratest...precious damn thing for girl




FINISH READING?PITY TO THAT GIRL RIGHT?
ACTUALLY THAT GIRL IS ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BULLSHIT!

my whole life

blog aku ibarat dairi aku..setiap kali update..aku akan update ape yg aku rase...

ape yg aku lalui sehari-hari..

what im feel

what i want

what i need

what i think

what i do

where i go

who is me

who is friend

my family

and everything about me...

yes...judge me based what u know me..

and if u want..u can jugde me based what u see with ur eyes...

not judge based what u hear..or judge from gossip or other

yes! share dairy...sgt malu..

but this is my place where i can tell people what i feel...

blog sy sgt mbosan kan...kalau ade pic..pic je belambak2..kalau xde pic..semua kena baca..penat lah nk bace..

suke hati cuz this is my blog...shit up ur mouth and keep quiet..

by the way... u r invited to read my dairy=)

jeleousy

aku pelik dgn kaw...kenape kaw suke dgr ckp org?ape susah kalau kaw kenal aku betol2..

jgn judge dr luaran..

sbb aku neh jenis mmg x kesah org nk ckp ape pasal aku...nk kutuk...silakan..aku x peduli ngn org mcm nih..kubur tggu engkaw...lagi kaw hina aku..rasenye semua pahala kaw dtg kat aku...

terima kasih musuh...

cume ape yg x sedap skrg..org pcaye ckp kaw...yes! agree..mule2 mmg org akan ekot je ckp kaw...dgr la konon kaw betul...

tp fakta kaw tak tau

one day people akan jdge kaw busuk sebusuk2nye...

dah x akan ade org pcaye kaw melaen kn kaw meet new people everyday..

but dunia ini related...

mybe kwn kaw kwn aku...hahaha...aku x kutuk kaw but people akan sedar sndiri sape yg jahat sape yg baik...

buat engkau yg egois...dunia kaw sedang naik..tggu 1 hari nnt=)

semua org akan pndang jelek kat kaw...

sbb cerita2 kaw aku admit ramai gila benci aku...semua cm takot gila lahhh nk kawan ngn aku...

mulut org aku dgr mcm2

" takot uhh nk kwn ngn bell..bnyk kot org citer bad pasal dia...ape yg x kena ngn dia?dia ok x?

pertanyaan org ttg aku..hoo terima kasih musuh..at least u r making me damnn famous...

so famous...penuh dgn kontoversi...aku abes belaja aku nk lupekan everything ttg unisel..

at unisel i meet too much bad people...

muke mmg baik...tapi hati busuk tak gune...

so kepada kawan lama....

terima kasih tikam kawan...

but now u r not my fren anymore..

please hide ur fake smile to me..

belakang citer busuk depan senyum2

hahah so funny

yg ini belkang cerita busuk

hina aku la...sbb nk jage name kaw..

sekarang ckp kaw syg aku..ouh my god..tuhan..

kenapa ada org mcm ni?

kenape x leburkan aje ?

kawan lama sy yg cantik+ gorgeous + femes + hotstuff +

korg x kan lama di atas...one day korg di bawah dan aku di atas..

jgn pade mse tuh korg nk mintak maaf..

cuz for me..

sorry seems to be the hardest word

and

im so hard nk maafkan org..

jgn harap dgn senyum aku ingt aku dah maafkan korg!

neverrrrr!

to my besties

please honestly to b my friend

im always love you=)

if one day u hate me

i will hate u more than u hate me..

trust me=)

sister

pagi tadi kak nie call...marah2 cuz the picture

damnn mannn! bnde kecik pun nak marah!

tthen pesbuk ngn akak y

she said :

buat lah.. dh besar ponn.. chill.. life is not as simple as that.. u will learn better when u go thru it.. dont blame people who cared about u.. they just cared becoz they love u..

: u & me know her better.. she cant just shut her mouth when things gone wrong.. take it easy.. just behave urself.. u can do.. dont go too far

: not easy being u.. my advice is think about what she want u to be.. just b a good girl... as simple as that.. its true

u think it is a very small thing.. u never know whats people thinks about u.. cant elaborate to u in details..
but think!! think!! think!!

ermm...tu lah...aku tau kakak2 syg aku..but its small thing..im 21 this year...common la...lepas tu terus tak ade mood...ngn si dia buat hal..kata aku x honest la..ape lagi kaw nk aku buat???

aku abis jujur ngn kaw...

alamanda bodoh

pegi tgk movie..avatar..midnite..hurmm...konon tgk citer paling awl abs pun awl la..ni tidak..kol 3 pg br citer habes..

ermm cerita not bad..best jugak cume aku x suke pggunaan org tipu nmpk x real...cume dr segi 3d..mmg hebat..ehhehhee

smpai alamnda..semua dah tutup...escalator pun x jalan..so kena la turun sendir..

then pegi je la cm bese..gpun br kol 11:30

abes avatar..nk balik..naik lift..

then press 3rd floor..boley pulak kua bunyi hantu gelak..babi punye lift nk maen2 kn aku pulaknseb baik tgkt 3 je..

then aku cume mmg dah pucat..dlm lift ade 2 org je..

pastu seb baik lift x jd ape...cehhh...kena main aku!!!

muke cool rilex agy sbb kalau takot..sat g x ley jalan pulak..

then mse nk g parking..tbe2 escalator tu yg part naek bgerak pulak..pdhal time aku turun td x gerak..ee haram jadah maen2 kn ktrg...

tbe2 kade kiri..ade toys tu..kalau masuk coin br bunyi...ini ngn x de sape kat situ..tbe2 je bunyi..

oooomaiigod,,,

serammm mmg...mulut aku diam..kang cabul x pasal...

so balik uma dgn perasaan cuak..kat uma ade beby..setan bnyk dok folow aku..takot kang beby nanges..

thenn smpai je uma aku call makk...

"mak sat g mak tggu adk kat depan..teman taw"

luck i have gratest mum...

mak teman aku smpai kol 5 pgi...dok gossip anak beranak..hehehe..

then ckp kat mak

mak adek penat la..esk smbung..im ZZZZzzzzz...

p/s: serik nk p alamanda...nnt soh parking dekat2 je sng

ape perasaan bila suka kan seseorang?

jantung berdetak kencang

tidak keruan

berpeluh2 bila berhadapan

lidah terkedu untuk berkata

tiba2 menjadi pemalu

muka merah padam

kerinduan tak terhingga

(mcm2 peel laa..mls nk berjiwang )

yes that the simptom when we are facing with somebody that we like..it is true?

then bila kite suke kn org tuh..we want more information about dia...all and everything

we try to ask frend about him

try to find an information about him

tp mamat ini lemu! bego! bongok dan bodoh

kaw bilang pada aku kaw suka aku sampai x boleh lupe

tp bila aku tnye

"bila bufday i??"

itu pun u x boleh jawab

Err july kot?? I bukan lupe..i x ingt..

omaigodddd!

common...u r so 3000 and late

bnde simple=) kat ms ada..kat fb ada...sms for asking also can..ini tidakkkk!

tidak mahu tahu dan tidak pernah amek tahu

why uhh?u so loser???

bila tnye "u dah baca blog i br update "

jawapannnye

1^st answer==> takkk..i mls nk bace..i tgk picture u je..x sempat online lama I dah sign out<==

2^nd answer==> mne la i tau blog u...u mne penah bgtaw i ape email blog u<==

That is why I come so lazzy with people like u…

Ramai lagi orang dalam dunia ini kenape tuhan menjumpe kan aku dengan engkau?

Ahhhh bosan aku dengan penat

15 januari 2010

pukol 2 gerak pegi jmpe pak matt...going to unisel shh alam..but x boleh baya cash..grrr...apesal la aku x tau..geram gila..kire kua td sia2 je la..nseb baik x gerak sendiri..kalau x..mati akal aku kat situ..

then ptg siket..pegi klcc..

jmpe si apis...panjang rambut kaw weyhh..kalah rambut aku..haahhaa..even kaw hardcore tapi kaw baik ngn aku ouh..soryy la sbb delete kaw bnyk kali...mmg xde kawan aku yg laen sggup belanje aku shopping..kaw je weyyy..lagi pun kaw mmg da jnji kan?

penantian aku selame 2 tahun akhirnye berhasil..ehhehhehe....aku suke beg n baju tuh=)

nnt tolong carikan aku tshirt FCUK taw..=) aku nak sgtttt=) nnt aku merajuk mcm aku merajuk ngn mak aku dulu..hahhahaha...

eniway aku senyum smpai ke rumah..mybe org yg tgk aku dlm train td ingt aku gile kot senyum aje memanjang..hehehehhee...

dalam train..ade org gila..kaw tgh tdo pun boleh gelak2?heh seronok life kaw..dah sah2 la gile..asek gelak je..even dlm tdo..mst kaw golongan istemwa yg x penah ade mslh..cm aku neh...memanjanggg ade je kesss...

yg pelik..kes jeles..ish ape lah ngn org yg x lawa cm aku pun korg nk jeles kenape??

jmpe cik yah=) hikhik...nmpk anis..ahh sng aje..anis tumpangkan..x ya jalan kaki...hari ini...dr pg smpai ke malam..senang sgt...hope esk lebih bermakna

p/s : esk jmpe mak..lame x jmpe..sbb lame sgt dok penang jmpe ibu..hehhee

life+emak+ semua yg bermain di fikiran

1# aku pelik dgn dia neh...org dah tolong mcm2...hargailah bukan susah pun..ckp terima kasih...hormat..ini tdak..kaw lagi besar kepale konon semua org syg kaw?
hey pelase..belajar hidup susah jgn tbe2 nk berlagak diva

2# borak punye borak,tbe2 dorg open kesusahan hidup dulu2..aku cube utk dgr dgn tenang konon takde ape jd..tapi x boleh..aer mate neh nk jugak keluar...ye mmg aku antara keluarga yg susah dahulu..doesnt mean skrg dah sng! no! please jgn anggap mcm tuh,,,
cumenye skrg aku mmpu pkai bju yg aku mahu bukan takat tgk je cm dulu=(
kesian emak=( mmpukah aku bahagia kan emak 1 hari nanti?

3# if gado ngn bf, seriously ckp aku x kan menangis...yes! no tears fall down..tak tau kenape..rilex je aku mghadapinye..bukan aku jenis manusia x de hati..tapiiii...ntah la..mybe factor bnyk sgt lelaki dlm dunia neh so aku TAK heran langsung if aku break..bukan sekali dua aku bercinta...dah hafal sgt perangai lelaki...bia lah tuhan ketemukan aku dgn org yg benar2 aku suke..wat mase neh semua hnye permainan duniawi bg aku...haaa exbf.... tinggal la aku or aku tggl kaw pon...aku akn wat derk je...bnyk lagi laki laen...

4# tapii if talk abt family...past time..whooo dgn laju nye aer mata neh keluar..x nk behenti pulak tu...yes for me famli more imprtant...and aku pelik kenape ade org dlm dunia neh sanggup tinggalkan family demi kekasih..hooo bodohnye engkau..mcm la pakwe kaw yg susah payah lahirkan kaw,besarkan kaw...jage smpai x cukup tidur..kendong perut besar smpai nyawa2 ikan je melahirkan kaw..dr x pndai ckp smpai dah tumbuh bulu...yes! for me..people hard to appreciate bila bnde sudah ade depan mata...mcm tu dorg anggap fmly dorg..
aku cukup sensitif bila org talk pasal family aku..lagi2 emak ayah...for me..mereka dah jage aku dengan baiknye..wlaupun sejujurnye aku sndri x btaw aku syg mereka...even depan fmly aku buat baik..itu bukan hipokrit..itu hormat....

5# kejadiah hari ini
pegi mkn kat gurney..da la aku merantau carik laki hensem kat penang neh seko pon x jmpe...hahhahaha..sume ensem2 da bwk diri kot..ngee~
then lepak minum..oder mcm2..then oder aer bnyk2..bese laa...kesah ape kami yg baya..
then mamat meja sebelah ckp "ayaq bnyk depan mata lagi dok oder "
kuajaqqqqqq gilaaa la..ish aku if hilang saba mmg aku sound je..nseb aku diam...tp tau plak mamat tu blah..da ckp pastu takot...
bukan nk kate ape..
tp kesah ape kaw aku nk oder 8balang sekali pun
ade duit nk baya ape mslhnye?
mybe dia tension sbb deting ngn awek dia oder teh ais 2 je kot x makan..ahhahahhaa
xde dwet tutp mulut! jgn dok ,mengata org
bodoh lemu! bingai!
haaa bengang la aku

HURT

when something's over
it is over
it can never start again
when its broken
u can never put back the pieces

life is not the way u want to be
when u that someone's hurting u so much
just STOP
we know that it hurt a lot
but u must learn to let go things

dont push urself to hard
coz we all know
that in every ending
there's such a thing
that we call the beginning

nanges pon x gune

its not talk about love..related with that..
hurmm
okay..from external..people can judge me anything..jahat la..bad girl la..everything such like that..sux=(
if aku x buat no need to judge lah..im just myself...

bila aku buat jahat..yes for sure aku kena balik lagi truk...dulu ye laa..selalu maen2..
now dah jd baik=)
dah x maen2 kn org lagi...

ahh ape aku merepek nihh..goodnite la..

hentikan!

sudah jgn msg sy lagi! untuk ape? ujian dah tamat..sy tiada masa utk awk

ape kes

delete lepas tu add balik?hahah what the shit?hahahha..bodo..delete sbb marah pastu add sebab menyesal..mcm tu lah manusia

fake and fuck!

dia pura2 baik sbb nk kawan dgn saya...
susah nk cr kawan yg sejati..ermmm..x malu la kaw..dah....syuhhh pegi jauh2 dr sy

symphaty and empathy

dia call..dan berkata dia syg saya..omaigod..awak..kenape sekarang?kenape bukan dr dulu?kenape bile sy dah saket hati br nk sy balik..kenape bile pintu yg dulu sy bukak untuk awak..awk x nk..skrg ianya dah tutup br awk suruh sy bukak?wlaupun ayat sy mcm keling paria dlm menulis blog..sy harap awk paham....
dulu sy ade awk je..x curang..x gedik
skarang mmg la sy single..tp saket hati gila kat awk..tataw nk bg chance ke tidak..
dah bg bnyk kali..ahh..3tahun?? it is really 3 year or...hurmm..mls nk pikir sebenarnye..
lelaki buat saye saket otak!

ptg td sy bukak youtube..saya search "fullhouse korean movie" saya suke cerita tu..alangkah seronoknye kalau jalan cerita hidup saya sama mcm dalam cerita itu..walaupun sedih tp ending dia hepi aje...mana sy nk cari lelaki mcm tu ye?dlm mimpi je ke?
ok sy nk tdo and hope sy jumpe lelaki idaman dlm mmpi sy=)

away

ku lari ke hutan kemudian menyanyiku
ku lari ke pantai kemudian teriakku
sepi..sepi dan sendiri aku benci
aku ingin bingar aku mau di pasar
bosan aku dengan penat
enyah saja kaw pekat
seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri
pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
biar mengadu smpai gaduh
ada malaikat menyulam jaring labah labah berlangit di tembok keratan putih
kenapa x goyangkan saja locengnya biar terdera
atau aku harus lari ke hutan belok ke pantai?

old flame..dark lover

u're stupid..you do not have appreciated me like I appreciate you..thank you because deceive me..I accept all with sincere..not Im not sad..just that I already frightened off to be cheated again..this is not what i want..not what i need....yeah! Im sad..but who am I to back track time? Im egois!..for me..one go ten comes..hahaha..

"the day you finally decide to love me will be the day after the day i have given up on chasing you"

meet my girlfriend

in the morning anjang ketuk pintu bilik..morning la sgt bgn pon lmbt..ehhehe

ajak p kenduri..then aku cnct zeda x dpt cnct dyla pon x dpt..haih mana dorg ney? x jadi dtg penang ke..so aku pon rasi la ckp aku nk p knduri dr dok uma je wat ape...then dyla msg ckp dorg nk seprise..adoiii kawan2 ku syg..jgn nk seprise cmtu..sy neh busy je orgnye...nseb baik x p knduri lagi...then around 2 kot..(lupe dah) dorg berjaya smapai kerumah after tersesat kn?ehehehe kesian hampa...lepak2 kejap then keluar pg queensbay..zeda kate ade seprise..ade org mau jmpe..aku x tau sape..suspen..rupe2nye apel.haih suke dpt jmpe dia..memendam perasaan setahun nk jmpe ney..hehehehe..last year new year sama dis year pon new year sama...beza nye taun neh tiada scndal,hahahha...

then jalan2,dorg la shopping..aku nk shopping kat kl je la boley..ehehhe..

ade mamat hensem bju pink..hahaha...bju nye x nk pink pulak..dyla suke..pastu mamat tu maen mate ngn aku..dyla im so sorry...

ehhehe dia mintak no fon weyyy..pastu aku x bg.aduh bodoh la..pegi jual mahal kenape???ishhhh....rugi..rugi..selalu je jual mahal..pastu nyesal...then lupekan la...lepak2 tepi laut kat seagate then snap2 pic..hehehe..at last i meet my girl..dpt jugak bkumpul..i miss you all damnnnnn muchhh syg...the bestie that i cant forget...korg kawan terbaikkk...love youuuu